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almightythirst ([personal profile] almightythirst) wrote2017-08-30 12:11 am
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[personal profile] nockturnal 2019-08-21 12:15 am (UTC)(link)
"Yes. We will discuss many things."

He is pointedly not looking at Jesse when he says it, and his expression is a tell-tale shade of neutral.

"...where will you go, now?" It is not a 'yes', just yet. He doesn't like the feeling of being corralled into anyone's game, played for either side. He will make no decisions just yet, and there is no telling if this is even truly the Genji he remembers. Perhaps the years have changed them irrevocably, if their respective curses did not.
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[personal profile] nockturnal 2019-08-21 02:24 am (UTC)(link)
If he wishes. That should be a clearer answer than it is. But there's too much not to consider before opening his arms so readily. It might be a trap. It might be genuine, as offers goes. And either way, there would be consequences.

"...very well."

And, at long last, the arrow slips back into its quiver, the bow collapsing back down once more into a more portable form. There would be no more battle this night, not for them.

"I will consider your words. I can promise no more than that."
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[personal profile] nockturnal 2019-08-23 01:09 am (UTC)(link)
Alive but cursed. Something he dared not hope for, and would not have wished upon him. The conflicting emotions sweep over him in a wave, his chest tightening as he allows him to pass and disappear into the darkness.

Jesse is there, he can feel his presence and his eyes upon him, and suddenly why Jesse hadn't told him who his informant was becomes abundantly clear. He knew his brother was alive. Watched him mourn for him, and said nothing.

It is more understandable, now. But no less infuriating.
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[personal profile] nockturnal 2019-08-23 02:04 am (UTC)(link)
Not moments, but minutes later, Hanzo's foot catches on the windowsill, and he slips back into the room as silent as a shadow. Dark eyes dart up in search of Jesse, wherever he happens to be.

If he hasn't slipped away to avoid Hanzo's wrath. Which would have been wise. He doesn't expected he's taken that course, however.
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[personal profile] nockturnal 2019-08-23 02:21 am (UTC)(link)
Trust that, in this volitile and fragile moment, that is what he asks. Hanzo doesn't reply immediately, setting the collapsed bow upon a nearby table, his thumb tracing the polished curve at the tip in a moment of quiet reflection.

Was he? No. Absolutely not. But he felt oddly composed, despite that.

"I thought I had done the worst possible thing," he replies after a pause, brow knitting faintly. "Something I could never be forgiven for. Instead, I have done something far worse."
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[personal profile] nockturnal 2019-08-23 02:44 am (UTC)(link)
"You were not there."

Jesse nears, and that's all it takes for the vampire to tense, shoulders going rigid like he's braced for something. Steeling himself silently as he locks gazes with his fledgling.

He'd known all along. He'd come to find him where he traveled each year to mourn his brother, knowing he was alive. Knowing what had truly become of him. Of course, Genji doubtlessly told him not to reveal his survival, not knowing what Hanzo would do if he'd known but...
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[personal profile] nockturnal 2019-08-23 10:05 am (UTC)(link)
"What it changes is that you cannot possibly pass judgement on things you do not understand!" he snaps, and there it is. That first burgeoning twitch of anger finally slipping through the facade of calm and numb.

"What happened that night changed everything. Every night since. I saw what I had done and I fled. And my weakness doomed us both."

If he had stayed, perhaps he would have seen the change in his brother. They might not have suffered alone as they had through the decades. So much would be different and...even Jesse might still draw breath as a mortal man. Doesn't he understand that?
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[personal profile] nockturnal 2019-08-27 02:36 am (UTC)(link)
"Ignorance is no excuse. Had I stayed and seen to him then..."

Perhaps he'd have known that they never laid a body to rest. Perhaps they might have had another chance. Or perhaps they might have torn each other to pieces then and there, and what if that was best? Rather than the cursed existence they live now, changed and marked by all that's happened to them.

Days ago, he'd thought he'd found some measure of peace and happiness, but just like that? Everything is uncertain again. And that's not even addressing the fact that Jesse knew, he'd known all along and he knows why he didn't say anything, but the spiteful fury still rises like bile in the back of his throat.
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[personal profile] nockturnal 2019-08-28 01:35 am (UTC)(link)
Amends? That seems so petty, in the scope of things. Genji's forgiveness did not erase the debt, it only meant the other had grown past what had happened. He'd found peace with it. It wasn't the same, and it wasn't enough. It might never be, in his own mind. No one could hold him more accountable for what happened or bear a deeper grudge than Hanzo himself did.

Which meant there was little point in belaboring the fact now. The vampire's expression tightened for a moment, one hand lifting to rub against the bridge of his nose briefly in frustration.

"...you spoke to him. He was the one who told you to find me, that night." It's not a question, but there is one lingering behind the words unspoken.

What had prompted his brother to send the hunter his way? Had he known what Hanzo intended with his fledgling, at the time?
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[personal profile] nockturnal 2019-08-28 01:38 pm (UTC)(link)
This time he doesn't back away or try to stop him, though his shoulder do go stiff, and some of that earlier chill returns to his voice.

"I know why you did. You do not need to explain yourself."

It wasn't as if it would help that particularly stubborn knot of resentment heal any faster. He'd feel angry about it for some time, and that was his right. The same as Jesse had his right to feel...whatever he felt towards Hanzo still for changing him into a monster.

Understanding does not equate to forgiveness, and forgiveness does not equate to redemption. This whole situation has made that fact abundantly clear.
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[personal profile] nockturnal 2019-08-31 05:19 am (UTC)(link)
There was a time when he would have latched onto that opportunity to give himself space. Retreating into the silent echo chamber of his own mind, until he'd fortified some sort of rationale for all of this. Most of it would revolve around old truisms that no longer held up quite as well as they used to, notions of how much easier all of this was when he was alone.

No one here to argue against the guilt he so readily aimed at himself over past transgressions. No one to push his boundaries. No one to tell him how ridiculous he was being.

He is angry, yes. But the thought of Jesse retreating into the city somewhere and leaving him alone with all of this is decidedly not what he wants. He scowls at the floor for a moment, arms wrapping tightly across his chest.

"...better you remain here. If Genji found us, it's possible others may have tracked our movements, already. We can't risk another incident, just yet."

It's sound logic. It's also nowhere near the main reason he doesn't want Jesse to go.
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[personal profile] nockturnal 2019-09-05 12:48 am (UTC)(link)
Something he wants to say? That's debatable. It's all there, brimming under the surface, things he would normally shove down and lock up tight. Not so easily done, now.

There's a moment's pause as he takes measure of the room and the space between them. Centering himself. His fingers tighten and lax briefly, lips parting briefly then shutting again.

"I was alone. For decades. I fled the ones who made me what I am, and I refused companionship. Human or vampire. They schemed, and made their plans, and fought one another. But I was content to remain outside of it all."

His eyes flit towards the windowsill, where the feather had rested.

"I had already proven what sort of evil I could visit on the world, if I wished it. There was no point in pursuing it further." There's a pause, before his gaze finds his fledgling's once more. "But now it seems I was meant to be a pawn in this game. Regardless of the side."

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