She was in much the same boat as far as being surprised went. They hadn't spent a lot of time talking about that, though they had discussed other things. It always seemed like more was going to come up to the surface. She should have expected that with their history, but it always caught her off guard.
Ashe often accused him of being a criminal, but truth was she had thought he was more lawful even despite the Blackwatch history. That they may not have strayed so far from each other is eye opening. Even more eye opening is the fact that he forgives her those trespasses.
A knot forms in her throat and she swallows it roughly as she suddenly feels a wave of shame. She always pushed aside the shame, but now she feels like she may have done something wrong and it wasn't the murders. In which case, she might have to actually apologize.
She gives a nod, "Just give me a minute and I'll join you." Then she steps into the shower and lets the hot water wash away the blood. With the water beating down on her, it gives her a moment to think about all those things that are running through her head and how to best approach Jesse after this. He has every right to be angry this time, the question is can she admit it.
After cleaning up, when she can't scrub anything else off and she can't delay it anymore, she climbs out and pulls a towel around herself. She takes a few more minutes to mill around the bathroom and get herself ready for bed, but finally she emerges dressed and clean.
Climbing into bed to join him, she reaches out for his hand. "I...I...Well...I..." The words are difficult to get out, but she finally spits them out quickly. "I made a mistake."
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Ashe often accused him of being a criminal, but truth was she had thought he was more lawful even despite the Blackwatch history. That they may not have strayed so far from each other is eye opening. Even more eye opening is the fact that he forgives her those trespasses.
A knot forms in her throat and she swallows it roughly as she suddenly feels a wave of shame. She always pushed aside the shame, but now she feels like she may have done something wrong and it wasn't the murders. In which case, she might have to actually apologize.
She gives a nod, "Just give me a minute and I'll join you." Then she steps into the shower and lets the hot water wash away the blood. With the water beating down on her, it gives her a moment to think about all those things that are running through her head and how to best approach Jesse after this. He has every right to be angry this time, the question is can she admit it.
After cleaning up, when she can't scrub anything else off and she can't delay it anymore, she climbs out and pulls a towel around herself. She takes a few more minutes to mill around the bathroom and get herself ready for bed, but finally she emerges dressed and clean.
Climbing into bed to join him, she reaches out for his hand. "I...I...Well...I..." The words are difficult to get out, but she finally spits them out quickly. "I made a mistake."