[ She had been hoping to offset the potential negative discussion or spilling more about how much she'd changed after her left, not ready to go into it. However it seems that it might be inevitable as he places his hand over hers.
Deerington had given him a happy memory about Blackwatch. It would have been a lie to say that now that they were together she harbored no bad feelings, even expecting that would have been unrealistic. She has a lot of anger towards Blackwatch. As angry as she has been at Jesse for staying away, it's Blackwatch and it's leader she blames for turning him away from her in the first place. The Jesse she'd curled up with in her photo wouldn't have left, at least...she didn't think so.
Blackwatch represented years that had been taken from her. While he'd be chosen and molded to be better, she'd been left behind to grow in a different way. It hurt, maybe it always would. But they can't hide from this and it'll eat her alive if she doesn't see it.
Finally she looks at him, nervous, but determined. Her hands start to shake under his as she swallows and nods. ] Can't hide from reality forever, right? [ And then she's pulling it out and looking at it. ]
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Deerington had given him a happy memory about Blackwatch. It would have been a lie to say that now that they were together she harbored no bad feelings, even expecting that would have been unrealistic. She has a lot of anger towards Blackwatch. As angry as she has been at Jesse for staying away, it's Blackwatch and it's leader she blames for turning him away from her in the first place. The Jesse she'd curled up with in her photo wouldn't have left, at least...she didn't think so.
Blackwatch represented years that had been taken from her. While he'd be chosen and molded to be better, she'd been left behind to grow in a different way. It hurt, maybe it always would. But they can't hide from this and it'll eat her alive if she doesn't see it.
Finally she looks at him, nervous, but determined. Her hands start to shake under his as she swallows and nods. ] Can't hide from reality forever, right? [ And then she's pulling it out and looking at it. ]